Working on it...

We are still working on our homestudy paperwork..
We are still working on our house, making it more habitable for a little one...

I am still working on not getting too upset when I hear about women I know who are getting to be pregnant...(there seems to be a lot lately)..(if you are a friend of mine and pregnant, please don't take offense to this, I am not angry with your pregnancy, I am still grieving my barren non existent womb)

working on it working on it working on it...


Christmastime was wonderful and a little hard, I want to watch OUR children open gifts, share their new toys with their cousins and family friends and see Paul share his Christmas joy with our little ones. I am thankful that we got to spend Christmas with our Seattle family the Cabreras this year! We got to watch their kids open some gifts and share in their excitement AND I got to hold Annabelle their newest addition as much as I wanted. (I know it sounds strange, but sometimes it helps)

Kendra made me these frames as a gift. One has Paul's baby picture and one has my kid picture and she left one with no picture in hopes that someday soon we can fill it with a new addition to our family. At first she thought maybe it would upset me , but I did not take it as being presumptuous. I took it as a step of good faith on her part. It helps to know that other people believe that you will someday be a parent.....



I know that there are many ups and downs ahead on our journey. We have more possibilities on the horizon and maybe even some more disappointments. At this time I am very thankful to have been blessed with a supportive spouse and some wonderful friends to lean on.